Starting the Week with Dieda ...

Without a conscious life-purpose, man is totally lost, drifting, adapting to events rather than creating events. Without knowing his life-purpose, a man lives a weakened, impotent existence, perhaps eventually becoming even sexually impotent, or prone to mechanical or disinterested sex. - David Deida

As you open yourself to living at your edge, your deepest purpose will slowly begin to make itself known. In the meantime, you will experience layer after layer of purposes, each one getting closer and closer to the fullness of your deepest purpose. It is as if your deepest purpose is at the centre of your being, and it is surrounded by layers of concentric circles, each circle being a lesser purpose. Your life consists of penetrating each circle, from the outside towards the centre ...

... as you dissolve each layer and move toward the centre, you will more and more be living from your deeper purposes, and then you deeper heart purpose, whatever that is, in every moment. However you are probably not living your deepest purpose yet. You probably need to burn off the karma, or fulfill the need, of the present purpose by which you are fascinated or distracted.

It's easy to feel disappointment by life; success is never as fulfilling as you think it is going to be. But there is a reason for this. Successfully completing a lesser purpose doesn't feel very good for very long, because it is simply preparation for advancing toward a greater embodiment of your deeper purpose. Each purpose, each mission, is meant to be fully lived to the point where it becomes empty, boring and useless. Then it should be discarded. This is the sign of growth, but you may mistake it for a sign of failure. ...

... among the signs of fulfilling or completing a layer of purpose are these:
1) you suddenly have no interest whatsoever in a project or mission that just previously, motivated you highly.

2) you feel suprisingly free of any regrets whatsoever, for starting the project or for ending it.

3) even though you may not have the slightest idea of what you are going to do next, you feel clear, unconfused and especially unburdened.

4) you feel an increase in energy at the prospect of ceasing your involvement with the project.

5) The project seems almost silly, like collecting shoelaces or wallpapering your house with gas station receipts. Sure, you could DO it, but why would you want to?

... the next layer of your unfolding purpose may make itself clear immediately. More often, however, it does NOT. ... there is no way to rush the process ...

... Simply wait ... whatever you decide to do, consciously keep yourself open and available to receiving a vision of what is next. IT WILL COME. ... learn by trial and error what is is you are to do ...

... you continually feel for the "groove" of your purpose. You might have a few false starts. But, eventually, you find ... it feels right for now ... you love what you do, so you generate love in those who come in contact with you. Your life feels full.

AND then one day, a few years later, it is finished. This layer has dissolved. And the cycle begins again, and again, until you have penetrated all the layers into your deepest purpose. Then you act fully, until that purpose too, is dissolved in the bliss of the love that you are ... - David Deida