Wednesday, March 12, 2008

To a silent place ...

I will be back ... eventually ...

I'm not sure when ... but it will happen ...

Right now though, I've come to a place on my journey where I need to be silent ... I need to heal some profound wounds ... I need to find my way through the clutter and the chaos ... I need to step away from the things that continue to tear at my soul ... and instead just be present to this moment and what it offers ...

A long time ago (by blog standards anyway), I posted the following:

to walk with God,
no strength is lost,
walk on...

to talk with God,
no breath is lost,
talk on...

to wait on God,
no time is lost,
wait on ...

Like Elijah in the cave - God is that still, small, quiet whisper that we can hear only when we slow down enough to wait ... slow down enough to quieten our souls ... slow down enough to enter a place of Holiness where we find God on God's terms not ours ...

Today, I am claiming the gift of silence and time ... I need to step away from this place, and from many of the associations that are an important part of this place ... I need to sit and quiet my soul to hear the still small whisper ... it will come ... but for the moment:

It's about waiting ... and taking the time to be quiet and present to the moment without distraction ...

I'll be back ... I promise ... in this moment, it's time to let go of the shore ...

4 comments:

Indigo said...

Whenever you need to crawl on my shore...........I am here.

new road seeker said...

just take care of your kids, shawn...

Wanderin' Weeta said...

Shawn, I am so sorry to see what's being done to you and your kids. You need to get out of Minnedosa. Shun it, as it is shunning you.

I know how it hurts; I've been in your shoes. Just hold on to what counts; your own integrity, the love of your children. Being of use to the rest of the world can wait.

I came over here today to pass on a meme to you; the six-word memoir. But now ... Feel free to ignore that.

(Although the remembering and prioritizing necessary for doing the meme might possibly be healing. Your call.)

Anyhow, what matters is that you and your kids have the time and space to heal.

For me, the 8 years at Bella Coola were that t&s; it took that long, but I came away with a sense of "wholeness" about life. I wish that for you.

Anonymous said...

Shawn, Do what you need to do to get whole. Do what you need to go to keeps things right for your family. Your real friends are here for you. Use them to help in anyway that they can. Don't go about this all alone. C